I was 19 and I started to start a quest to find my other half. I used internet dating website. I have nothing to be afraid of. I was ready for anything. With rage in my heart and a heartbreak open wound.
I thought I had this realistic point of view on looking for my next love. This time I won't fall again. I need to find someone that really mature and can take care of me.
I had specific type of man now. I don't want to be with Indonesian anymore. Yep. I look for foreigners.
I chat many people, maybe like 30 something people. I blocked whoever that only looking for sex or scammers in general. I only wanted a real person that will do the distance for me. Nothing less.
I met few of them, man from around the globe. Irish, Scottish, American, African American, lots of Aussies. They do this for work mostly, mining company workers, businessman, artist, yoga teacher even athlete. The athlete one is real athlete I saw him play basketball on TV.
Most of them are nice but don't want real relationship, so I eliminated them. I have goal now.
There is one guy who stay in Australia, never visit Indonesia before, work in mining industry in his town and willing to visit Indonesia just for me. I thought he was lying, but nope. He really came and we met after 6 months of intense video call. He introduce me to his mom and sister via Skype. He's a genuine man.
He was 17 years older than me, never married and want to find love. I said why not? Let's try and see what will happen. I was 19 he was 36. What a huge gap. But I'm not a type of person who see people from their age, everybody's is the same no matter their age or nationality. After all they're human and they have unique life story.
He showed up and his mind is different from any people I knew before. He is intelligent and very open minded. I like open minded person whom I can talk anything without getting intimidated. I love his way of thinking. He's everything to me. Everything I ever wanted and financially stable.
I dated him for 2 years, from 19 to 21. That 2 years of my life I felt like living in a dream. He came to Jakarta every single month for one week. He treated me like princess. He always gave me everything that I wanted, every food that I wanted to eat. We went to every five stars hotel and finest restaurant.
We went to Bali several times of course stay in five star villas and YES! Same date the following year I swear to myself I have to go to Bali to show my ex, It really happened. I went to his restaurant where he worked with my new foreigner boyfriend who was so so so much more than him.
I win. At least I prove myself that I can have someone better than him.
He kind of proposed me that time and ask me to marry him. I said no. Not until I finish school because for me education is number one. He offered me to go to Australia with him and continue my degree there. I said no. I'm glad I didn't say yes.
Around a year, I saw changes in his personality. He was not that sunny anymore. He drink a lot. He was very deppresed and like to yelled at me. I was crying all the time and I swear to God, I was afraid to see him.
He was tall and big. Way much bigger than me (I'm a big girl myself, you can imagine how big he is, like 190 cms something) I wanted to run literally to save my life. He get abusive and I was not comfortable at all.
That day around 2 years, I finally decide to ended the relationship and call it to an end for good. He was angry like I never see before, he threatens me with any cursed words possible. He wanted to go to my house and sue me for whatever expenses he gave to me. (I never ask for any money, all the expenses literally just hotel bills and restaurant bills which he enjoy also). He just wanted to make me afraid and terrorized my life.
It ended for good. So my journey to find my other half is now tiring me already. But I never give up.
To be continued...
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