Months of happiness

After a long journey of disappointment, I decided to take a break. I really didn't want to involved in any relationship or dating game again. I chose to be single and enjoying myself. I closed and delete all of my dating website and apps, it's time to finally surrender and let love come itself.

The 2016 was my happiest year, year of no drama. I went to music concerts alone, I went to visit my friend in malaysia, I went to Bali all alone.

I finally found myself back. I made good friends and I made great memories with them. I once again can be focus on self growth without interruption.

I laugh louder than before, I dance to every music on the radio, i went to gym, do yoga and fixing myself.

When I was in Bali, I pray to God to guide me to the next chapter of my life. I'm about to quit my job without any future plan. So I tell God to bring it on whatever plan he had for me. I want to learn more about life and I want to go from my parents house.

My parents always push me to do everything they want. They never give me options or chance to express my interest. All they wanted is for me to inherit their business, which I hate so much. I never have any interest in that field. At all.

I was in a very hard position, to be in control of my parents or find my own path from zero. As always I chose the hard one but I didn't know how to start. Uncertainty hit me hard.

God give me a hint, on 1st January 2017 in Bali, I had a motorbike accident. I never had accident before in my life. My feeling told me that there will be something happen in that year. It will.

I officially quit my job as radio announcer and producer In March 2017 hoping I will get a job because some companies look interested to hire me. There even a company called my for interview 3 times and I already took their test and another company where my friend work called me out also.

But guess what? From all the CVS I sent, not even one call me again. Something was wrong. Yes. I know there must be someone involved in this. Yep. Thank you universe! Now I don't have job and my parents are pushy as ever.

I remember I was crying all day just for God to answer my prayer.around February He sent me one person I never even knew before and she had this ability to see me. She know everything what I went through and reason behind this. She said this will be my awakening, I need to go through this karmic situation from my biological dad. I never knew who was my biological parents and this person can read all of my ancestral past. She was God sent. She told me that there was something that lure her to talk to me. Remember, I never knew her before, she just came into my life out of nowhere. She just literally came to me in a public place.

I don't know how, I get a long with this person, she explain to me about the gift I have. I knew it. I always felt that I'm connected into something spiritual. All of my life I believe in spirituality and seeking for answer. I always had a vivid dream before something happen. I can read people and it surprisingly accurate. I only tell people what's inside my mind. I always feel like something following me from I was small to guide me . I don't even have no idea why. I always be the mysterious one who had different point of view. The weird one.

This person open my eyes about my situation and why it happen like this. She said I need to learn certain things before I can get into my full potential. I need to learn about patient, releasing my selfishness, and ego. This she told me before I going through all things. I said, bring it on. My arrogance nature and my over optimism said it will be just fine and everything will be easy. No it won't.