To those who believe

We are those who believe. Those who never second guess, but choose to believe that there is a good in everything. No matter the circumstances, no matter the situation, we believe that things happen for a reason, and that nothing comes along by chance.

We are those who carry this hope, this hope in knowledge—that things may not fall into place now, but they will someday, when the timing is right.

We’ve always kept the faith.

People laugh when they see us go about our lives in such a manner; they say we’re irrational and delusional. That we are ‘oh so innocent’ and simple minded. Maybe they are right and we have too much faith, if that’s even a thing.

But you see, maybe sometimes we do indeed believe too much. We hold onto this belief that people are just as raw and real as we are. We display our true colours and expose our flaws with the belief that only when one is open, can one be truly loved by others.

But in turn, often the opposite happens and people take us for granted.

And instead of confronting or faulting them, we just tell ourselves that maybe life has been hard on them and the problem probably lies with us instead. Everyone has their own struggles, their own stories to tell, right? Maybe he or she is confused at the moment or caught up is a messy situation.

But as they always say, if you want to find an excuse for someone’s behaviour or actions, you always will.

And most of the time it’s probably us just coming up with excuses for them to make ourselves feel better, to avoid the obvious truth.

Other times this “believing too much” shows when put our all into the things we do, the things we love, our passions and our dreams, with the belief that when you give your all, the best will come out of it.

But instead of having the success we expected, we only have them come crashing down.

“You should have known,” “I told you so,” “If only you listened,” “It wasn’t possible to begin with.” These are the words we hear time and time again from the people who have always stayed in the “safe” zone whenever everything falls apart.

Well, but deep down inside you and I know that no matter how many countless times we’ve been let down, no matter how many countless times we’ve failed, we’ll never learn our lesson.

And we never want to.

For to have perfect faith and believe is to have confidence in the uncertain future—a future that won’t be known until we eventually get there. Right?

So, we’ll still always be those who will willingly take that leap of faith into the unknown, for we know that everything worth having, doesn’t come easy.

And don’t you think it’s such a beautiful thing when you realize that where you are today does not define where you’ll be tomorrow?

You are exactly where you need to be, to be where you want to be. Believe in the beauty of your dreams, chase them, keep running.

Never stop being the “foolish” ones, the ones who will always give it a shot. Anything can happen, everything can happen, you know that.

Continue to take chances and believe, because who knows, maybe one day it’ll indeed pay off. 

To the man I love next

To the man I love next, I want to take all the time in the world to know you. I won’t jump into a relationship with you right away and put a label on what we have in the beginning. I won’t be so smitten with you that I fall in so deep before I know what is happening. And you won’t be so mesmerized with me that you think I’m everything you want without knowing me on a deeper level.

I want to be best friends with you first, bonding over our similarities and learning our differences.

I want to know your best childhood memories and what make your soul ache. I want to be connected with you, sharing our knowing look across the crowded room. I want you to forever look at me with your warm, expressive eyes and a reassuring smile that never fails to calm my racing heart.

I want us to be partners, both committed to us and putting in effort to make our relationship grow. I want us to inspire and encourage each other, helping us become better versions of ourselves.

To the man I love next, I want to love you in the little things. I don’t want a fairytale romance starring you as the gallant hero and me the reluctant female lead. I don’t want a love so dazzling like the stars in the night sky. I don’t want you to make my heart flutter and my senses to spin out of control.

I want a love rooted in the mundane and ordinary so that you are a part of my daily life. I want a love that thrives under pressure and blossoms in the face of obstacles.

I want to fall in love with your mind – brilliant and worldly, constantly telling me things that fascinate you. I want to get used to your presence – faithful and consistent in my life, showing up to be with me because there’s nothing you rather do. I want to be with you in reality – feel you in your warm flesh and hear the loud pounding of your heart as I press my ear against your chest, feeling safe in your presence.

I want to be with you through thick and thin, from the good times to bad times.

I want you to love me, not only when things are easy and you want me to share your joy and successes. I want you to think of me even when your world flickers into darkness, and instead of pushing me out at the first instance, you instinctively pull me tightly into your embrace and reassure me that we will survive this.

I want you to listen to me and trust me when I tell you our love is strong and real enough to overcome anything.

To the man I love next, I promise to love you with all my heart.

I promise you I will do everything I can to make our relationship last. I promise I will never stop trying, even when the circumstances dictate that we should give up. I promise to never wave the white flag and walk away at the first sign of troubles. I promise I will stop expecting the worse and have faith in us.

I promise I will not withhold my feelings for you, just to avoid getting hurt. I promise I will love you like no others, with every inch of my heart and soul.

For you have my love, all of it. 

A postcard

To the man I Love, to my future.

The first time I felt your presence ,I began joining the dots in the sky, wondering when our stars would align.

I often think of where you are and if you're happy. Are you in Love ? I hope she is gentle. I know you and I are the same in that way - we bruise a little more easily than most. You see, our souls were made in the same breath .

I know I'm running late - I'm sorry. Things haven't worked out the way I planned. But believe me when I tell you I am on my way.

Until then, think of me , dream of me and I will do the same.
One day I will learn your name , and I will write it somewhere on this Page .
And we will realize that we have known each other all along. 

Lang Leav