Isolation

In this past few months I isolate myself from outer world. My only window of the world is social media and YouTube. I even deactivate my Instagram and Facebook because everytime I open social media, I become more lonely because I can only see my 'friends' look like having fun on their own. So social media is not for me now.

I cut every contact from everybody that I know. I run away from the world for a reason that I never sure what for. I don't know how this thing will end. I'm waiting for something that uncertain. Nobody know about what I've been doing. I just want to run away from everything and this make me insane from day to day. I've been hiding myself from things I don't know.

I am at the wrong place, wrong time. Everything are just wrong. All of my needs are fulfilled but not happiness. Even I want to run away from my own escape plan.

I'm on my own and nobody can help me now, I have nobody by myside. They're busy on their own and People around me just want to control me for whatever they think good for me. I trapped.

What kind of life test is this God? What karma should I pay for this? God help me. Set me free from any bad things that want to drag me down.