Coincidence

Do you believe in coincidence? No, I don't. Everything happen for a reason whatever it is. So, as usual I want to share a little bit of interesting story that happened to my life recently. Well, it happened 3 weeks a go I think? Yep. 

One day I just scroll on my Instagram randomly, and saw one of my long lost friend post. I met him in 2013 accidentally also. That time I knew him from radio. Not the radio I worked for but online radio where my classmates friend listened too. My friends are talking about this funny radio programme and she told me to listen to it. I said yes why not, I don't have anything to do at night and that night I listened to his programme. 

It was a funny yet explicit programme I can tell, just fun programme that talked about nothing. It was entertaining and I can't stop listened to them, I sent Twitter post to respond to the topic and they read it. Just normal listener. But, that guy DM me in Twitter message. And the rest is history. 

So that time I still dated my Aussie boyfriend (the story is in my previous post) and we just talk. Just flirting, he asked me to go out to watch horror movie and we did having a pleasant time together. Funny story but that time he picked me out with vespa motorbike and smell like cheap perfume, that's the only thing I remember about him. But because I found him also flirting with another listener I just leave him alone, and I had boyfriend also at that time. So I easily forget him. 

Years passed by, it was 2015 when out of fucking nowhere he contacted me again and wanted to see me again because he passed my neighborhood area. We made appointment to see again. I thought why not. 

That night we made appointment to see movie in Grand Indonesia after work. The weather was not friendly at all. It was raining and I have to wait until the rain stop. My workplace was in Sudirman area, Jakarta Stock Exchange building. I literally walk to Grand Indonesia because no bus, no taxi, no ojek whatsoever. You know what? He left me right after I arrived there. What in the world? I was so angry, so sad, so tired and I watch the movie all by myself. I watched doraemon movie stand by me alone and crying. I cried because I feel stupid and not appreciated. I went there with all my heart and with all my STRENGTH! I blocked him right away. But I still friend him in Instagram, sometimes I saw his posts and just rolled my eyes. 

2021, his post was just pop out in my timeline. I saw him quiet popular now, I watched his interview with one of the popular comedian. I just thought, oh good for him. Just wonder how he is doing. Not upto 5 minutes I watch that interview, he DM me again in my Instagram. He said is this really you? Is this Hesy? I said yes how are you. He's fine and he's doing great. 

Turned out he remember me that he left me in the cold 7 years ago. I remember because it was a big deal before but not now, it never crossed my mind again for a long time. So we talked and talked, just catching up. He said he wanted to said sorry for what he did and want to re-connect. 

We met, we talked about many things. His past, his new life and so was I. I talked about my rough life, my depression, everything happened to my life openly. We connect, well at least that's what I thought. I gave him my prayer book so he can pray more and connect to God because he told me he started to pray again. I make sure at least our meeting give him something to remember and bring something positive in his life. I genuinely want him to be his better version of his life and trust in God more. 

I told him my feelings and thanked him for a glimpse of happiness that he gave me in my cloudy times and he said he is happy to re-connect. And it was our last conversation for 2 weeks now. 

The coincidence was I have seen many angel numbers everywhere and it all written 1313, the day I request song to him it was love song by 311 and it was 31 January 2013. The time showed was 13.13. 

Is it a coincidence? 

With my wisdom and my long experience with this feelings things, I really don't want to expect anything out from this connection. Maybe he just want to finish his unfinished business with me and say sorry. I forgive him. I wished everything is going well in his life and he get whatever he want in his life. 

This could be a ghosting situation again but I don't mind. This is life, he can do whatever he wants and so do I. I just move on with my life. If that coincidence means something maybe it lead somewhere but I don't expect anything. God has his own plan and I believe it must be for the best.